Archive for February, 2006
Well I went to physical therapy and felt like an ass for getting so emotional in my audioblog. I hate that I get all emotional and then I get all emotional about the fact that I got emotional.
I was already stunned as I recorded in my audioblog…going into this weekend one of my mentees was feeling disconnected from our mentee group and part of what was hurting so bad was that her 10 year old sister was diagnosed with cancer…I was affected…I stopped hiding from my own emotions and pain and so I am open to the pain and emotion of others.
Then as I began my coaching day one of my guys was missing and it turned out he was grappling with cancer today. By midday today I opened my email at lunch to take a break from my coaching day which starts at 5am only to find out that a friend and client Alice had lost her 44 year old son in an auto accident recently. This brought up all sorts of emotions and fears with my daughter and her mom driving across country.
By the time I got on my company call to end my coaching day on a positive note one of my friends and coaches Par had to jump of the line because a close family member had just had a heart attack and died.
I picked myself up and dusted myself off but I know I was deeply hurt that this had happened and that I did not know…was so wrapped up in my own little world. Then after my audioblog I went to physical therapy and returned only to get a message from my best friend Doc that a boy who was important in my life had just drowned at 19 years old. He was the closest experience I had ever had of having a son in my life as we lived together for some time. Doc also was really hurt but went on to share with me that our friend and fellow coach Roger had also just passed away from a heart attack in his sleep.
I don’t know, it was all a bit much, and then here at the end of the evening I finally connected with my daughter and just as she got off the phone she told me that she was going to Memphis to visit the grave of my good friend Willy Frye who died a few years ago at 44 years old as well.
What Georgia doesn’t know and what I didn’t have the heart to tell her is that little Marty died. The last time we saw little Marty and Willie was when they both happened to be in California by coincidence and we all went to lunch. Odd that out of eight people at that lunch one of the worlds greatest athletes and a 19 year old healthy boy are both no longer here.
Of course, before going to bed I get the call that we are on to meet with a large gathering of superintendents of schools for several cities. There is a group of television personalities who are presenting The Game as a way to turn around their school system. Not taking the call and not being at my best would be no way to serve the living and no way to honor the dead. I know what my purpose is, I know where my responsibilities lies, I am hurt and yet must I serve. Thousands of childrens lives could be turned around and because they wish it to make the subject of a television show many more lives would be impacted.
My fiancee is concerned about me and so are some of my friends. I am fine…just having to deal with a lot right now. I love Brooke so much. In the words of the title of the great Eugene O Neil play it has definitely been “A Long Days Journey Into Night”.
February 28th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
February 27th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
This is always the part of the process that I can’t figure out. The point where all resistance seems to fall away and what you think, what you want and what shows up happen almost immediately.
Whether it is something as small as needing to talk to a person and picking up the phone to call them only to find them calling me on the other line to finding exactly the right person that I need to answer an exoteric business question.
It is definitely happening with people. I was going to call an expert this week to get on his calendar instead I got an email with an invitation to come meet with him. Mayumi a woman that I met who does similar work as mine or her referring me to a company which was exactly the company I have been looking for.
It always begins this way at some point and I don’t see yet how or why. I know the usual mumble jumble but I am not looking to repeat something someone else told me, I feel the need to see and understand it for myself.
It has also begun to show up around me more strongly than usual, Molly getting her jewelry line in a top store is just a small example. My partner Barry has had more wins in the last several weeks than many of us may see in a life time. I don’t know that it has anything to do directly
with me but indirectly the connection is undeniable. I find myself manifesting and manifesting manifestation…an interest occurrence.
February 23rd, 2006
Dhrumil Purohit
February 22nd, 2006
Sarano Kelley
Yesterday was quite the day. My senior coach Luciano and his wife Sara were working yesterday with me on coaching and she went into labor early in the morning so there is a baby on the way. My other coaching collegue had a family member return after their being away for a long time at the end of the coaching day so all in all it was a pretty exciting day.
I am almost relieved that I have hit the mid point. I know that the next 38 days of this Game are going to be really hard for me. It is going to take that long to come out from under the effects of the last quarter of 2005 where I did the most travel I have in 5 years but also had some of
the weakest numbers I have ever had in a final quarter of the year. At the same time I will likely enter the best quarter of my career because of all of the work I have done to correct the problems but I can only turn a battleship but so fast.
I must say though that despite all of the change that went on yesterday and the fact that I worked from about 6am till about 8pm my game is going pretty good. I am on top of my work, I have significantly improved my relationship and romance with Brooke and we are eating very clean while working out a lot more. My personal relationships are blossoming and I am in touch with friends I have not spoken to in a long time. Particularly some the players who are reworking the curriculum with me, some of the best people I have ever had the honor of working with.
I need to get to meditation now since I have a long coaching day because of the Monday President’s Day holiday. I can feel the pull of the last 45 days and the finish line is in sight. It feels so different than the push of the first 45 days, kinda like sliding downhill…strange but wonderful feeling.
February 22nd, 2006
Sarano Kelley
Attached is my updated Game 30 Point System and Timeblock.
Click here to download it.
February 20th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
I spent last night and this morning with my 2:45am game partner who flew all the way from Little Rock to come see me. He and his business partner have played The Game several times. In fact Rob is one of a hand full of people authorized to lead The Game and he has led to over a 100 people from several countries.
Currently he is dealing with a painful relationship situation that I was not entirely present to from our phone conversations. Once we were face to face I could see and feel the pain he is in.
I have watched him overcome many things and come back from “the dead” several times using The Game. I cannot and will not allow him to fail. He has saved my sorry butt more times than I can count and in more ways than I care to admit. Allowing him to fail would be like letting down my father/Father…it’s just not going to happen while I am still breathing.
He is now on my hit list and I will punch his number even if I have to get on a plane and show up on his front door to do it. The kid gloves are now off in our relationship…this time it’s personal. I owe him at least that much.
February 19th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
I am tired of writing about what is going wrong and what I am challenged by but after spending the last 24 hours crying I have to be honest with myself. Hard to deal with all of the loss I am experiencing…I always have to watch this week that the kids died…I seem to get sad when Valentine’s Day comes up because it reminds me of missing them…my daughter is moving to Boston, we will be seperated for the first time in many years. I am glad for her and I think it is a good decision but it hurts to be losing her…even though her mom and I are having a tough go of it right now Chris is my oldest friend and I have taken having her around for granted…it was also hard to realize that they would have to give up our dog Sophie and Georgia’s horse Dante…I always pretend like these things don’t matter to me…it’s only been made worse by my almost losing my relationship with Brooke this week…I don’t know how much more loss I can take this week. I feel so much loss, been holding it in and holding back the tears but today it all caught up with me…tired of playing tough guy, tired of holding it all together. My partner Barry’s family business of 30 years burned to the ground last night and he had to hop a plane to try and go and support his family…one of those weeks, one of those days, one of those games…even felt like I was losing him…it starts to pile up like this and the emotions flow and it feels so hard to come back…of course for the first time in months my back is starting to act up so surprise, surprise I am also experiencing the loss of my health…so want to run and hide, so want to be alone, to hide…can’t give in, can’t hide, can’t pretend…got to allow it to hurt…I love my daughter so much and it hurts like hell to let her move on but it is what is best for her…I’m going to sleep now, going to hope that it will stop hurting if I close my eyes for a while…why is it that I only miss people when they’re gone or dead…it’s just seems so selfish to want people around just so I can take them for granted and not have to feel the pain of missing them. I miss my cousins Phyliss and Lonna who died in the fire, I wish they were here. We agreed as kids that when we all died we would have a family reunion, that we would all meet at the crystal fountain spoken of in the book of Revelations. We all swore as children that we would meet there for a Kelley Reunion. I look forward to that reunion…I look forward to seeing them but until then I will just have to keep walking the world keeping a stiff upper lip.
February 16th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
I made it through Saturday which is the anniversary of the kids dying in the fire. It only got compounded when their dad, uncle Bob (aka Sporty Boy), slipped into a coma at about the same time (just almost 2 decades later) and then he died. Always a little hard around this time of the year for my family.
I was in a very tough space in my relationship and this weekend we were in a powerful course together and it was like being reborn. John Catalina is an absolute genius when it comes to relationship. He has dedicated his life to understanding relationship and it is clear that he has forgotten more than I know. I am going to have him start working on coaching me and a group of us who were at the course are going to start doing a period group date night where we all go out.
I am working hard at refining my work while dealing with several challenges all at the same time. I definitely am not working out enough and my meditation is just passable. I must get my foundation flat before day 45. My body is doing well but not really getting into significantly better shape. My relationship has gone back to being incredible. My work is leading to one of the biggest business periods of my career but I have a lot to make happen.
February 13th, 2006
Dhrumil Purohit
Another really bad nights sleep. I would have to say that the last 2 days have been exactly when I moved from building the foundation for my game to actually playing it and the amount of external resistance and pressure has been tremendous.
It is as if all manner of distraction and personal problem has risen up against me at the same time.
I spent the first 30 days fighting an almost exclusively internal battle, dealing with my own resistance, my own depression or negativity. At the point where I was able to understand and transcend that the resistance moved from internal to external. How does that happen? Why does that happen?
I can’t give in and I won’t give up.
February 9th, 2006
Sarano Kelley
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