7 Days Left, Challenged

April 6th, 2006 Sarano Kelley

Here we are near the end of this game and I need to reach out to my friend Mike whose dad is not doing well. My fiancee has been kind of enough to to support me with all that I have on my plate especially with my upcoming meditation retreat and the television show. There is no denying the fact that the stress on us is very high. I think she is also really hurt by what Jon is going through with the cancer…it is in her nature to be sensitive to the pain of others.

I must admit that holding the Albany Team together is taking a fair amount of energy. I know to expect that since all of my teams require energy until they begin to develop their own momentum but with the possible impact this could have on so many kids I see the stakes as very high.

I had a panic attack on my flight out to Montreal and boy do they suck. I don’t know which I hate more panic attacks (which leave me feeling like a coward) or depression (which leaves me feeling like a loser). I refused to let the panic attack last a second more than it took for the emotions to fall away. I refuse to be bullied by my weaker emotions and taken advantage of by my so called better emotions.

It’s not looking good but I have had dreams about my oldest friends Fred and Kevin from high school who I have not spoken to in years. Also my friend from college Mike’s dad is battling cancer…I am close to being complete about this game but without making these last few connections I would end my game with some level of regret…I am challenged.

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