Week 12: Back in the Game

This week represented my last week of dual role responsibility at work, and I am looking forward to moving back to one job, as is my family.  For the week, I achieved 52 out of 58 points (90%), and I am excited to be journaling my lessons learned again, which I have missed since Week 7.  It is really amazing how much more I am getting out of the journaling experience because it further integrates and reinforces what I am learning every week.  Hard to believe that I had overlooked this best practice until I played this game.
 
My work with directed attention continues to pay dividends, and yet the more aware I become, the more I realize how asleep we all are.   I am finding dozens of opportunities every day to be the detached observer… to just be.  As I do, I find that there is no effort required to change my conditioning (i.e. there is nothing to do, only something to see).  I find myself giving up control more readily, in less in reaction to outcomes, sidestepping being offended, letting go of value judgments.  Everything is in order.  Remarkably, I am also able to do this at work where the world seems to be in direct conflict with this approach to living.  The more I aware I become, the more I realize I need only “do my work” without expectation.  No need to struggle for results, but instead to just be aware while giving it my all.
 
My biggest opportunities for the remainder of the game center around how I can bring more awareness to my daily activities.  It is not about the typical paradigm of doing more, but instead about how I can let go by dropping the weight of my unconscious conditioning.  Additionally, I need to establish greater alignment between everything I do and my purpose.  As I reflected on my purpose this week, I realized that the “tasks” I am already doing on auto-pilot could actually be done from directed attention, centered on my purpose.  My purpose is not some future ideal, but instead an ideal I can hold myself to every day, and I must remain aware of the alignment opportunity with every activity I undertake. 

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