When your passion is equal to the task you will rise to the occasion. It seems I’m not passionate about having self control when it comes to food choices. I have a hard time telling myself no. And since I can not work out for 2 more weeks it’s not pretty. It is time I stepped up and tweaked my game to reflect the true focus I want to have on health. I want to lose 10 lbs and reduce my body fat by at least 5 %. If I fail to do this then I have failed to tell myself no even for 8 more weeks. I will breathe and redirect my focus every time I think of a snack. I will be committed to 3 regular meals and 2 small snacks. I will not eat more than 2000 calories a day. Ideally 1800. I will drink 8 glasses of water. These are things I will do as if Ed McMan was going to show up with a million dollar check if I succeed at this. I will honor my body who hosts my beautiful spirit. I will deny Gretchen. My instant gratification personality.
July 31st, 2007
Lori Taylor
has come and gone…but it was a good birthday…and a nice starting point for the “new me”! I am fully committed to my diet right after I finished my chocolate souflee at Mortons. It was a nice way to go out! But I feel reborn today. I truly do. Sometimes the mind needs starting and stopping points. And my birthday is the perfect time to tell my mind that it is time! It will speak when it is spoken too. It is not who I am. It is a tool I use. I will watch it. I will appreciate it. But I will not bow to it. It will not own me. It will serve me. This is the first time in a long time that my birthday was more than just a celebration filled with food presents and love. But this birthday was a reflection on all that I’ve been, all that I will be, but more importantly a celebration of all that I am right now, right here, in this moment. Thank you God for all the small moments in my life. Thank you for the gifts and opportunities that you always have waiting for me if I just ask. Thank you for always being inside of me, ready to be tapped into, anytime I want. Always. Thank you. I love you God. I love you Lori. And I love my fans.
July 31st, 2007
Lori Taylor
This is why I missed my partner call yesterday. Both Rod and Lori were able to adjust their schedule to make the revised call time, but I missed it. My business partner is out of town, one of his clients came in complaining about the market dip—and unfortunatly the SEC says I have to see him. But—once I realized he was biting into the call time, I should have excused myself to call my partners to let them know there was a hitch in my schedule. It was not till later that I realized —”hey–wait a minute…the market is closed now anyway”, so a discussion with him could have waited a few minutes. I tried to justify missing the call because I was regulated to take the meeting—but I was so time unaware, that I missed it . Guess I need to pay more attention to my attention. Lori reminded me that “excuses are like a certain part of the anatomy—everyone has them and they all stink.”
Thanks Lori!!
Sorry to you and Rod and the rest of the team. If I miss another partner call for an avoidable reason or without apprising them first of a conflict, I’ll donate $500 to the charity of choice for either Lori or Rod (they can fight about who gets the dough!!)
Play well
Tony
July 31st, 2007
Tony A
Everything ok? We missed our call this morning. Brooke ok?
Tony,
I owe you, our team, Paul Blanco, my friend Todd Lieberman, my partner Mitchell and my past partner Trent an apology. Brooke is fine, everything is okay and I am hiding. I am hiding behind:
-being busy
-self importance
-shame
-embarrassment
-disappointment
What I am not dealing with is:
-I did not keep my Saturday morning call with Tony and did not call him in advance to communicate (I was on a call starting at 6am that ran over…yada, yada, yada, I’m important and busy even early in the morning on Saturdays…more self importance added to some defensive arrogance)
-I have not emailed or communicated with Todd. Why, because I feel like I should of contacted him before now, I did not get to make the recording for him I said I would and I am ashamed that someone who has been so great to me would be let down by me…more shame and embarrassment. I also said I would send him a synopsis for the movie I have written and he is coaching me on producing and because I think a lot of him and very little of my own talents I have let the completed document sit on my computer for a few weeks now…
-I have reached out to Paul a whole whopping once or twice and because we did not connect I had that be my excuse for not trying…weak on my part, very, very weak…when did I decide that a lack of immediate results was a good cover story or excuse for a lack of effort on my part?
-some of my teammates have sent me their games and I have not reviewed them, so instead I have been stuck, got overwhelmed and followed it up with a good dose of “mild” depression…way to go champ!
-Scott emails me and rather than read the email immediately I “do” other things and then feel guilty that I have not responded to his email, of course any emails sent prior to his can’t be read because I should read his so I bury myself behind more guilt and justify it by being busy
-and for Trent and Mitchell could you of gotten a worse partner? I know we get the results but my level of play at best indicates that results must be pretty damn easy to achieve because it “ain’t” due to my calling you. Mitchell has called me several times and I failed to respond (I was in an unexpected meeting, I was in the middle of a big “deal”, the sun was in my eyes…yada, yada, yada, excuse, excuse).
So far in this game I have achieved more in a few weeks than I have in whole years of my life. I have had 2 sets of investment bankers I respect take on bringing my company public if I only I would actually get them the information they need to do their jobs…I have a long list of accomplishments, MY game is going well…for me, it’s just my “level of play” that sucks, it’s my selfishness that sucks, it’s my lack of concern for my team that sucks. If my team was more important than my “problems”, my problems would go away.
I apologize to my team and friends for not thinking enough of you to let you know that I am drowing and instead “fend” you off with being busy. I apologize for not thinking enough of myself to communicate and ask for help. I apologize for my arrogance and thoughtlessness.
I AM COMMITTED TO:
-having my daily calls with Mitchell
-blogging daily
-keeping track of my points
-returning my emails (within 48 hours if not traveling, within the week if I am traveling)
-being responsible for the fact that any busyness in my life was created by me and to be a martyr about it is revolting
I AM:
-apologizing to all of you
-recommitting to all of you
-no longer hiding or making excuses
Thanks for taking the time to read this and if I have let you down in any way I hope that you will give me the opportunity to redeem myself, if I am out of touch, it is always because on some level I feel I have “dropped the ball” and am ashamed…whenever I am ashamed I stop communicating which then turns shame into the starting point for depression. Yes, I can be depressed, need only 4 hours of sleep and do more “Superman” stuff but on the inside I know that I am not giving you my all…I know that I am cheating myself.
Sarano
Your Coach
July 30th, 2007
Sarano Kelley
My final week of all-week travel has come to a close and I faired reasonably well in achieving 63 out of 79 points (80%), particularly since I had very little control of my schedule that went from early morning to late nights at a corporate management seminar. The effort required achieving my points decreased considerably this week as I began to establish the mental groove.
For the coming week, I need to execute 100% of my points, which is very possible now that I enter normal rhythm for weekly travel. This is also important because it puts me in position to hit my intermittent reward for achieving 90% of points in the first 30 days. If I hit that 90% target for the first 30 days, the remaining 60 days should be downhill. Of course, there is little margin for error this week, and I am spending time tonight ”deep time blocking” the week to create the space for me to execute flawlessly. This reward will be fun for my entire family, so I must not let them down.
A quick review of last week:
Good: No patterns to the misses. Workout groove coming back. Meditation continuing to yield benefits every day, and transforming my perceptive capabilities during interactions. Had a tremendous week extending my professional network with five high quality additions, each of whom I also took time to send a personal, handwritten card. Additionally, found and enlisted two new coaches in areas of importance to me.
Opportunity: Missed golf this week as expected. Had planned to create points for a different activity since access to a course and my clubs was not going to be an option, but failed to follow through in creating an alternate point system to manage this week. I need to double up my golf efforts this week to get back on track. I also need to begin tackling the laundry list of goals for the 90 days by identifying 3-5 side projects I will get done across my focal areas each week.
As the end of this coming week should prove, the achievement of my weekly points will become more automatic, allowing me to focus my energies on improving my awareness throughout the day as well as working on inner exploration around energy conservation and achieving my potential.
July 29th, 2007
Z Man
I just had to write on that tought today that was given to me from my loving brother in law. He had trouble all week getting set up for high speed at home. He started telling me that God did not want him to have high speed internet. Tonight he left a message for me and he jokingly said he was going to write a book called the title of this post. And then he was going to do his auto biography of all that went wrong in his life. After wiping the tears out of my eyes from laughing so hard, I realized that most people really do ask themselves those questions. And I’m glad, after everything I’ve been through, that the one lesson I have learned is that God doesn’t care about high speed internet, he’s just watching me care. And at the end of the day, my show can be pretty boring when I sweat the small stuff. I can be a big fat commercial to God. So I’m committed to this game, to my life and to getting the most out of it. My spiritual guide told me wednesday night Try doing everything you do, every small task, for the rest of the week with love. And I have. Even getting gas, I found a way to be grateful for my car and great transportation. So I would challenge all of you to do everything you do with love. Even if the love is just for yourself. It’s an amazing shift of focus.
July 27th, 2007
Lori Taylor
In May I went to Fiji and was given the gift of the oneness blessing. I became a deeksha. I was actually given the gift from the man who started the oneness university in India. I also met Baghawan and his wife and was blessed by both of them. It was a life altering experience. Last night I went to one of his highly trained guides and had him work on me for almost 5 hours. My energy is aligned. My mind is quiet. It’s unbelievable. He helped me with my goal of balance. Today I am tired and am recuperating. But tomorrow I will hit the ground running. I feel like I am well on my way….
July 26th, 2007
Lori Taylor
Whoo wee—always hard to get back in the saddle after a long weekend. But I did enjoy some R&R. I realized that the best way to get my juices flowing is to work on creative projects. I tend to get caught up in the details and sucked into emails which for the most part are NOT productive!! I need to get OUT OF THE EMAIL TRAP. And I am NOT doing well in the diet arena. I will lose 1 pound per week for the next 10 weeks. I am going to journal daily to my partners. Already I’m dreading the call of shame when I admit to the 6 french fries and piece of bread I had. But it was my birthday lunch. And I did avoid a dessert with dinner. So there is hope.
July 24th, 2007
Lori Taylor
I used to believe I didn’t have enough hours in the day because I wasn’t focused. And now that I’m focused I realize that there truly are not enough hours in the day. LOL. However, I believe that I have a better way of tracking the things I am proud of. I noticed I would chunk my to do or my mind dump as the whole enchilda and that was burning me out. As part of my game I’m looking to do a little each day to accomplish more overall at a pace that is more fun to run at and more fun for the fans in my life. So this is my focus and it is very hard on my mind. I just finished the Power of Now. That was an amazing book. I can see the and feel the peace in feeling my inner energy as I move about my life. Even when I’m full out, to keep some focus inside is only allowing me to continuing fueling my soul. This is an amazing time in my life. I’m so filled with purpose, hope and insight. Charge…
July 23rd, 2007
Lori Taylor
The abnormal schedule continued this week, and I have one more week to go as I will be in all day management seminar this coming week. I was hoping to grease the skids on these new behaviors before getting to this upcoming week, but alas that did not happen. This week was even tougher than week one and required brute force to pull out of misses in the early days of the week. For this last week, I achieved 60 out of 70 points (86%), short of my goal and also not the manner in which I hoped to get there.
An assessment of the week showed two patterns to the misses in the focal aspect of health. I was unable to hit three days of my workout and also consistently missed prepping my meals the night before to ensure I have quality meals available throughout the following day.
The misses in these areas were driven by two separate root causes. For the workouts, I have a very morning intensive Game, and any late start to my day, creates issues for me accomplishing all the items I have timeblocked in before work. When this occurs, I chose to pursue other items in my Game which yielded more points for the same physical time invested. For the meals, being on the road accounted for three of the misses, and I need to either substitute this meal prep, which is not applicable on the road, for another item during travel days. I need to develop an alternative action tonight or tomorrow morning to substitute in these situations, particularly since I am on the road all this week again.
Good: Character demonstrated in recovering from the early misses to post a respectable performance across my game focal areas. Meditation morning and night as well as doing a 60+ min “long sit” on Saturday have already demonstrated meaningful differences in my attention to activities and in interactions with others. Mind dumping is consistently solid, but still only time blocking a day in advance vs. for the week. Speed reading up to 800 wpm. I am beginning to think my goal of 1,000 wpm was too conservative, but I also recognize that I am still uncomfortable with the pacing and rhythm required to read for longer periods of time as my practice session are only 15 min.
Opportunity: Biggest item I need to address besides health items listed above is to completely time block the entire week. By not doing this, I am making the Game more difficult than it needs to be, and occasionally putting myself in a space where I am not appropriately dedicated to the point I am trying to achieve because I am scrambling to close gaps. I missed my point for 3 golf practice session this week, and will have to develop an alternative way to practice this week given not having my clubs as well as anticipated time commitments. I need to be engaged in working on golf consistently (i.e. every week without fail) to achieve my aggressive improvement goal.
I am also making one change to my points to more accurately reflect the occurrences where points are earned. This change will increase my weekly point total by reflecting the actual number of times a behavior in the weekly game occurs. So, previously I have only earned a point only if I practiced golf three times during the week, but will now earn a point for each individual occurrence vs. not receiving a point if I did not execute three times. This will more accurately reflect the amount of work I am doing.
The Game is definitely on!
July 22nd, 2007
Z Man
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